Mensagens

04-03-2017 - Petra - What Women Want

Miss Sloane is a movie picture that tells the story of a woman that work for lobbies in the U.S.A. Her professional life immerses her on a spiral of demanding tasks that erases completely her personal life. She does not have time to feel that she is alone. She does not have time at all. She suffers from sleep deprivation and relies duting the day on pills to make the world go round. Perpetual professional  duties isolates her from doing simple things like do some scrambled eggs and a salad. Despite she is afluent, she eats at a shabby greasy dinner directly from the paper buckets.
As a member of a shared economy,  she also shares male prostitutes. She is only interested in selfish pleasure and be breathless for some time in order that she senses that it still can feel. She falls in love by the only prostitute that is introduced in the script, called Ford, his real name, that she does not even believe once we are vested in alias and multiple nick names. As duties are stronger and addi…

15-02-2017 - Lagos - deterritorialization to Cape Town

As I put down on the table Kant's Critique of Judgement, the dialogue propelled at the coffee shop on a table next to me.

    - What are you thinking?
    - I am thinking about us.
    - Why you told me I was a lie? (challenging)
    - Because you are precious to me. (bitter)
    - Do you believe me?
    - I don't know.
    - Why you are so statuesque?
    - Because you put some holes in my chest.
    - Why you are so possessive? Go fuck yourself!
    - Your life was poured into my mouth.
    - My poison was spread across your back.

The waitress arrives and bends in a way I tell her to stand-up, she must show some self-respect. I ask for the bill.

    - Why we just don't walk way? (touches gently the forearm, eager)
    - And if is terrible? We will hate each other. I will lose you as a friend.
    - The other day you seduced me. (playful)
    - Well, you certainly enjoyed about it, don't you? (gasps)

The waitress brings the bill.

    - What are you looking at on the p…

31-01-2017 - Cape Town - The plateau of mirrors. Part one of the first part

At a restaurant, waiting for K, while I was searching for too much information on the phone, a couple sit next to me. They barely talk and their eyes wonder to the decor.

I put the phone and took a sip in the entry-level white wine. I look discretely to the lonely couple. I try to image what they are thinking, staring with contempt.

We discover.
We caress.
We touch.
We fuck, we come.
We loved.
We cared.
We work.
We fought.
We forgive.
We fuck.
We work.
We fought.
We work.
We work.
We work.
We cheated.
We work.
We cheated.
We cheated.
We cheated. We quit.

K arrives. The waitress, dressed like a pin-up escorts K to the table where I sit.While am being suffocated by work issues, I interrupted her and tell:
- Have you took a peek to these ones, sitting next to us?
- With the energy we are creating, it is becoming a form of social relationship harassment. They feel intimidated, she told. I have been trough it before. I tried to reverse the situation, but I did not work. It was useless. Onl…

29-12-2016 - Paris - Book of the year

A thousand plateaus: capitalism and schizophrenia, by Deleuze and Guattary was not published this year, hence, it would never appear in any best book of the year list.

A challenging read. Therese Krumbholz, the dumb housekeeper of Elias Canetti Nobel prize award wining novel, Auto-da-Fé, needed to read twice or three times the same page of Peter Kien's infinite book collection to understand the meaning of it. In this case you do not need to repeat the reading. Most of times you will understand the reading if you have a life story that reveals your experience across the authors narrative style and how it connects to the concepts they wrote.

It is a book that followed my world drifts, my inner reflections. That exposes your ignorance, that lets I see right through you. More than the technical interpretation, makes you ignore listening to the order, exposes how ridiculous you are when you already lost your privacy, how you lost your reasoning, when the state, the machine, controls wh…

5th November 2016 - Frankfurt - She is in parties

Travelling in economy class in any kind of airline can be a very rewarding experience. The closeness, boundary-less space shared with the passenger siting next to you, can be considered an invasion of your privacy, unless your travelling partner is a woman an she is interested in embracing into journey of exposing the soul to a stranger. Have you imaged what is to be laid back, relaxed, looking to her eyes, like you were with your date in a bed, ready to start sexual intercourse and you listen without paying attention, about her dreams and experiences? And how frustrated it becomes once she does not give you a sign and you can't put the arm rest up and enter into her space?
We were 3 at a table. I noticed her feet are beautiful. She scrubs the feet gently under the iron table, as we seat at a restaurant near a swimming pool.
- When the divorce was over, I wanted to move out of Berlin, she told. - I was sick of the routine, to go to my fathers and listen their lectures, an…

06-10-2016 - Lagos - Open head surgery

I wake up. I look at the window trying to figure it dawn is close or I need to wait. Everything is dark. Again, waiting to feel the pulse of the city. I have nothing to do. It's 04:18 as I glanced to the phone glass.


I am defined on not finding a center that is hidden in my mind as I fell multiple exogenous forces around an idea, like radiating circles that expand in my brain with an hidden order. I jump to one place to the other, to one principle to the next one. I cannot find answers to what is right or what is wrong. Sense just moves away and drains my energy. Contrary of complex systems, there is no natural equilibrium.


I have been told I put very hard to myself lately.

26-08-2016 Dubai - I am a copy of a copy of a copy

When you arrive to Cape Town's airport domestic terminal, there are a series of billboards of an investment bank that is promoting safe and responsible asset portfolio management. Most of the pictures are about people coming from different backgrounds and professions, sweating, exhausting and bleeding to achieve some conform or life status. One of the billboards' includes a picture of a young male working alone in an empty office. All the city is sleeping. The  person is there finishing some kind of work on top of a deadline.


I worked many times like the man in the picture. A recurring repetitive pattern in the knowledge era we live.


Music is that piece of art that I like to hear time and time again, contrary to books or movies, that I shelve, once I read or watch it. I particular enjoy song versions.


During the 80's, the music industry created a new revenue source, the 12" extended play mixes. In the beginning, those versions were merely black vinyl fillers, but aft…